I wanna hold your hand. Wanna hold mine too?

Okay  so just to be honest  I am in a shite  mood  today. This  post will not be  a happy one.

Have   you ever  had  all  your hard work and happy memories  just  disappear  without a  trace?  I reckon  it feels  like...like a photo album of  your childhood   being burned... sure  you remember  it (or most of  it anyway)  but that pile  of  ash ...

So  this  morning I wake  up  and  go to  my bookmarks  of  our  RPG's (Role play games)  on Fanfiction.net   and I see that   a lot of things  are missing.  Now I admit I thought  we had  been hacked and someone was  deleting our topics . Then I  eased  my mind  by assuming the site was  spazzing ,  Like  it does  every weekend,  and started   poking the refresh  button  to death. Then I decided to take a look at  the sites  homepage and my  good jolly mood was  officially  thrown  out the window because  of this

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So that was it... just like that ,  any of  the rpg  topics  that hadn't been posted in since March 23rd 2010 had  been deleted... 

nearly 5  years  of  storyline  and  hard work and  memories  were now  non-existent.  Not to mention  that  most of these  topics  were still  being  used in the RPG .

Now as  a loyal member of this  site and as a  writer  I feel as though they slapped me in the  face.  And I cant do anything about it because we can never  get  them back.

For those who don't understand the  severity  of this  post or why I am in a bad mood  you have  to   understand : Our imaginations  were invested in this, our love  was invested in this , we spent years  putting this  together and  building OUR characters , OUR  story. And now that story  is for the most part ( as in Topics  that  haven't been posted in since March 23rd)  are  Gone  Forever. 


But ,as  the Late  Great Albus  Dumbledore once said :

'Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.'


So here I am  groping for a  light  switch in this  darkness.


Seems as though the  best option  is  to save what we have, and keep on  truckin' .

You have  to remember and keep it in your heart  that  this  was  just a  sad  moment  in our lives.  We have learned from it and must  build up instead of giving  up.  I'm  not giving  up, and I  hope no one else will either.

After all  , “Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark.” 


xoxox,
 Andi

You can count on me ...

Like 1-2-3 I'll be there.

There is  no real purpose  behind this  post  besides  to  show my loved ones   and friends   that  they are loved  :) .  Have a  great  day  everyone.

Titans of the north. what strange strange creatures you are...

So  Im sitting here   on the computer  while my bro is watching television and   I happen to look up  to see a  documentary  about  ... Moose  in Alaska .  But this  is  specifically what  I  see

 

Then  this

So  naturally I cant help  but  wonder.  What the Hell happened???  DID YOU KNOW  :  Mooses   shed the velvet on their  horns ( quite brutally , mind you,  this  is what it looks like before  we see the beautiful smooth  antlers   that  they have grown. Cant have beauty with out pain ... or whatever that saying is :P)

Also  apparently male moose's (bulls)  dig small holes and  have killer aim when it comes  to  and I  quote " Urinating  extravagantly"  into said  hole.  Then get this... The female Moose's (Cows)   battle each other (cat fight  :P)  to   roll around in  the  Bulls  pee and show  they want to mate by  "excreting perfumes"  onto the male. ...  Talk about marking territory. and here I thought Hickeys  were bad :P.

But  over all moses  are pretty amazing minus  the few strange , painful  looking habits.   I liked  this  documentary a lot and have a  new found respect for moose.

Computer troubles, Writers block and foggy futures.

A wise (Wo)man  once said  'Writing is  3% talent and 97% not being distracted  by the internet' 

That is  the truest statement I have  read thus  far. ( Ironically enough while I was on the internet and supposed to be writing lol)   . I have really been slipping. Especially for someone who isn't even  doing a  whole lot on the net  but hovering around reading  stuff.   It's  a  shame. Though I have cut down on the time I  spend on the  net. The  hours  are  starting to cut into my writing a lot.  Though I am proud to say that I  have completed  two chapters  on projects  I am  currently working on so YAY!  So far all I have to do is type them out... again.( seeing as  my laptop Froze out and nearly exploded on me. Ah the pains  of technology... It is  a curse..and sadly one of my favorite things  to handle.  But  at least I  know  I am somewhat computer Savvy.

Okay thats it . YOU ,YOU ,YOU AND YOU! OFF MY PLANET!

I have  decided that its  about time  I have  made some changes in who I have in my life. After all it is  my choice right.

I have  my friends . I have my family.  I have a  heck of a lot more than other  people have  so I  should be totally at peace  right?   Not  right now I'm not.   After evaluating myself   and  nitpicking this  rather  distracting brain of mine  I find  the  root of most... if not all , of my problems.

I initially trust that people aren't  as selfish , uncaring, or manipulative as they seem.  That  they couldn't possibly  be  aware of their  behavior .  If they were they wouldn't  do the things  they do.

And then I  get pissed off  at the people look back on my experiences  with them .

And I KNOW  better than to be so naive.   

Yet as soon as I  am not angry anymore  I go back   to  trying  to see  the good.

But  you  know  what.   I quit trying.  from here on out  I am no longer   gonna  be the person   people only  come to  when  they need a yes man  cause everyone else   is  smart enough to say no.

I'm  not gonna  be the person  who gets  the backlash and attitude cause  they  think I'm an easy  target.

To my True friends  and  family  who are reading this  nothing  is gonna change :) I'm  still the same old Andi/Brandi that I always  have been.

To all  the others.Game over. I quit .OFF MY PLANET!* :P.

*No I do not think  I own   the planet . Everyone  has their own world of family  ,friends,associates,  ect... and you are no longer welcome. So GTFO.